mayo_san

mayo_san @ 2009-05-28T11:25:00

2009-05-28T03:27:54Z

bihyul is sooooo kawaiii!! *_*

but enough of bihyul

I just got my hair cut last last sunday and I think this is the best haircut I ever had

its just that I don’t have to style it I just have to comb it a little and im free to go hehe

anyways

Ive got this dimwitted exschoolmate that kept on copying me

at first I didn’t mind it, I thought iw was just a coincidence

but then I saw my missing keychain on her

I know she saw me looking at it cause she excused herself and went somewhere else and when she came back the keychain was gone

I let it pass again kasi cool ako hehe

then 4thyr came

she copied my poses in pictures like taking a picture of my shoe or ipod

my clothing style and my texts

I would never pay attention to her copying me but then someone said the I was copying her and said something that I forgot now

ofcourse all my blood went through my head but it was only a second

then im back to my cool demeanor

I just shrug it off

then the next day

I started making parinig to her

I know she know its her that im making parinig to

after that I think she stopped copying me

but then after a year I met her again

but I don’t think she saw me

she’s still copying me

I looked at her fs

she even copied my blog yea this little blog

she’s trying sooo hard to write in english

im not saying that im good at writing in english

but if you could just read it

I know you’ll understand what im saying

it’s annoying really

why could you just get herself your own style

and stop stressing yourself copying me

because even you tried so hard at copying me

you would still never be me

you’re always be a dimwit

bust it baby hehe

2009-05-09T07:07:04Z

oh what a lucky day for me

my tire got busted, and I have to walk my bike to the nearest vulcanizing shop which is pretty far from where my stupid tire got busted

thank God hapon na nun

kundi it would be so damn embarrasing

anyways also in that day nagbike ako sa mga pangarap kong puntahan

my cousin was with me, we biked in area 1 and then we went in orchard

biking there is pretty much like suicidal

yea, there wasn’t that much car driving there but crap

puro trucks at buses

I was scared at first but yea its part of my dream

I can’t be a professional driver if im a scaredy cat

so we biked there, yung mga trucks biglang na lang lilitaw parang di kami nakikita hehe

tapos yung bus oh shit grabe nagulat na lang ako hehe

so napilitan kaming mag rough road

we biked in the grass and rocks, maybe it’s the reason why my tire got busted

something sharp got into my tire

after our death defying bike ride

we went back home and my lil brother insisted that magbike pa daw kami

so we biked in the subdivision near our place and stopped again to eat chicken skin

and then when we started to bike again, I noticed that it was a little bumpy eventhough the road was smooth there was no rocks

then I remembered that it was like this when I got my tire busted before

so I checked my back tire, yea my tire got busted again crap

when I reached the vulcanizing shop, the guy there told me something that I forgot now and put my bike near the door of their shop

and I waited, then I noticed that he was doing something else

I thought that he had forgotten me and my bike

so I talked to him and guess what

there were 5 tires that he would be vulcanizing too

and not bike tires but truck tires

oh for Goddamn sake! hindi niya sinabi sa akin

so kung di pa ko nagtanung I woukd be waiting there for hours

oh sh*t, I want to punch him but I don’t want my fist to be hurt

so I snapped at him and mumble some curses and then snatched my bike and walked towards home (which is if you’re studying at my school is from gate one to gate three)

when I was walking home I cursed the people who stared at me and throwed them nasty looks (you know like I death-glared them, like if you watch mai-hime it was the looks Natsuki always gives to Nao)

I was so depressed and angry that time, yea sooo angry

im soo angry that when I reached the sign of our brgy some of the bystanders there offered some help and that time my brain was filled with so much anger I yelled at them I felt like I was so publicly humiliated because naawa sila sa akin and I dont want people to make awa at me cause im not that nakakaawa oh for God sake I just busted my tire

so I yelled at them I want to beat the crap out of those dimwits but I still got a little self control so after I yelled at them I continued walking towards our street

I felt good after I yelled at them hehe

channel your anger to something else that’s what my counselor told me

so I thought that channeling my anger to them was pretty good idea and I wasn’t wrong it felt really good

when I got home my mother was worried about me

I told them what happened except the yelling thingy

and thank God my dad didn’t scold me for busting my bike’s tire again.

and that’s the story of my busted tire hehe

so close yet so far

2009-04-02T04:40:25Z

it sucks to know that the one you love doesn't love you the way you love them

I know this is dramatic for my first post but this is what I'm experiencing now

my unrequited love for him will always be unrequited

before we were so close we became best friends but some time later I noticed that I'm having strange feelings for him
I started to get jealous at her ex girlfriend and became annoyed at him

some time later he noticed that I'm getting cold at him
and then he asked me why?

I don't know what to answer cause in that time I still don't know what those feelings are
I just get annoyed at him and then get close with him again
I started having mood swings when I'm with him

until one day I started silent treating him
I don't know why but it feels right

and our gap got wider and wider until we can't even look at each other

I know his hurt and sad
but I dont know what else to do

and I've got to stop this feelings for him
cause I know Im the one who will be hurt at the end